miruku's Garden: DIY

Do you regret your profession?

If i had a do over, i would not choose accounting. I don't become an accountant because i love the work, it's because i was only good in numbers and i couldn't figure out what other subject i could further study (sad case), and everything about being an accountant looked pretty damn good to me- the status and especially $$. But as i walked along the path that i'd chosen, i can tell you how much i hate my profession. Because of my profession, i have to hold such post in the company and to be everybody's PA- especially in financial planning, that sometimes involved family issues. Because of my profession, everybody thinks that i get easy money from the business, out from the safe any time and in to my pocket, just like that. Because of my profession, i have to face so many people who are eyeing on my boss's money, and you know that people get close to you for a reason! Because of my profession, i have countless sleepless nights when i discovered something odd in the business that i can not voice out and when i have to do thing that is not according to my wish or against my professional ethics. And because of my profession, i'm everybody's enemy in the office, everyone is hiding something from me... I feel so hopelessness sometimes. I wanted to quit for long but who is going to safeguard the business then? Maybe i'm the only one who thinks that i'm so important to the company but actually i'm not?

Doc said, "Don't stress, it will worsen your eyesight." Don't stress- it's always easy to say. Life is never easy. Sometimes i think it's better if i get blind only then i will learn how to let go. Stupid.

Meanwhile, money is still good to me, but i don't need that much of it to have a fine life. Life is more about doing interesting things and having fun, and spending time with your loved ones at home. So i decided it was time to find something else and started a small business of my own. Some small wood work business. I'm an accountant who prefers to hold a saw. Sigh.